After our soil discussion we took a trip to
Sitting under one of her trees looking at photos of her farm over the years, I realized that this farming experience is a very significant event for me. It was almost an after thought to work at the PEAS farm when another plan fell through, and yet it was not a random decision, but a serendipitous one. I realized today how long I have dreamed, imagined myself in my visions, to eventually live on a farm. Why have I never considered working on one? Learning about farming? What an idiot I am sometimes. Wake up, Sara! This IS the life you have imagined, wondered about, envisioned creating…why is it just now, and practically by accident, that you are finally doing it? Well, it’s not too late. And it feels really right; like I said, significant and important. I don’t feel that I am meant to be a farmer. But I am one step closer to experiencing the life I’ve imagined for so long. What else have I kept as just a fantasy without realizing that I could be living it? I wonder who I will be by the end of the summer? I am grateful for the hand of God gently transplanting me from my hesitant dreams into such vibrant, crawling, sacred and fertile soil.